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It is difficult to fight against your insecurities. Even though you know you are far better, sometimes you just can't help it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

Okay, I don't know what to say. Lol. I guess I'll just greet everyone a Happy New Year! Be safe! :)

PEOPLE LIKE YOU

People are being too judgmental. They don’t consider other’s feelings. People commit mistakes because unfortunately, they are just people. People should not conform to other people’s expectations or standards especially if they are too unreasonable.

I admit that I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I can be stupid at times. Clumsy and dumb. I admit that I don’t have everything to be proud of. I don’t know everything. I am neither an expert nor a genius. I have my insecurities and fears. I am not as confident as you are. I am not as wealthy as you are. You may be lucky enough but forgive me for saying this, I got better manners than you.

You can’t brag yourself or your skills because you are nowhere near perfection. Why not look into yourself and tell us what it is in you that are not perfect? Everything? Now that is bulls**t. Why do you have to criticize other people and brag yourself as if you are so perfect? You are not a total package either. I don’t know if it is your defense mechanism or what but apparently, your behaviour is such a displacement.

You should learn how to respect others for them to respect you. Be sensitive. Or better yet, if you have nothing good to say, just shut up your f*cking mouth. I guess that way, your self-declared-good-ideas will have a much better executions than those you brag.

People do their stuff for their own purpose not yours. They have their own expectations for themselves. They don’t have to conform to your standards. People express their feelings. They do their OWN stuff and it has got nothing to do with you. I do this for myself. This is all about me and not about you. I don’t do this for publicity nor for fame. I’m here to express and for it to serve as my diary and not as a platform for criticisms. I’m not here to impress people, especially people like you who are very structural. I thought you were spontaneous and the type of who-cares-about-rules. But looks like you are just the opposite of what you declared to be you.

PS: I never proofread. So spare me.

To My Mr. Engineer :)

The phone rang, it was Ronald’s mom. “Andyan ba mama mo?” said Tita Elsie. “Wala po tita eh. Bakit po?” I replied. “Bukas dito na kayo magdinner ha” she said.

I was surprised to hear that his mom invited me and my family to have dinner at their place. There was a small gathering as a thanksgiving for my boyfriend passing the ECE Board Exam. Yes, he’s now an Engineer! I really believed in him. He’s very keen, very diligent and very determinate. I witnessed his hardships in reviewing lots of thick books, travelling all the way from Cavite to Manila to attend his review session and skipping lunch just to attend the 12nn mass in St. Jude. I’m always with him every Thursdays after my class and his review to attend the mass. We had toendure our hunger, the heat, and the populated and polluted place of Mendiola so that we won’t miss the 12nn mass. As an FYI, St. Jude is much known for the hopeless. And it is a popular place for board exam takers. They say that if you’ve completed the 9 consecutive Thursdays, you’ll be having a great chance to pass the exam. Anyway, we always attend though there were times that I can’t go with him because I had job interviews and other errands to do. But surely, whenever we were there, we make sure that we take a shower with holy water. Lol. And I think it was effective because I am very blessed and so is my engineer lover. :)

So last night was a blast. We stayed at Ronald’s place till 3am videok-ing with his family and friends. I met his relatives from his father’s side. Sure thing, I’ll never forget his Tito Louie who is very humorous and all his jokes were hilarious. I was so ‘bungisngis’ whenever he’s around. He considers himself as an actor, much more like Piolo Pascual. Lmao. So here are some of our pictures from last night's celebration. Photos are courtesy of Ronald's sister, Rhacel Caceres.

The party won't be complete without our OLMM Titas. Btw, pardon for Tita Becca (the one in between me and Ronald). She called it 'No Other Woman' scene and we can't be together whenever she's near. Lol.

The cake. And look, his mini caricature was also present. Hihi. Oh btw, it was from me. It was my birthday gift to him. And I have to commend, his family loves it. They were the one who placed it beside his cake. Even his dad was bragging it to their relatives. :)

With his Mom and Sister. And his lil brother from behind. Haha.

With his sister. She is so sweet and caring. And P.S., she really loves to sing.

With his parents. Tee-hee. It was a bit awkward on my part but I love the feeling. I felt like I belong and I was a part of the family.

And of course, the party can't be without these two, Ja and Pok. They are Ronald's best childhood buddies. They stayed with us till 3am, singing out of our lungs, and yes, they were drunk. It was never an issue for them :P

And for the new engineer, Ronald Caceres Jr., Congratulations! I am so proud of you. All your hardships paid off and I know it was God's gift to you because you never failed to believe in Him after all the obstacles you have gone through. A very kind-hearted man, indeed. You are such a blessing to your family, to your friends, and to me. I love you so much and this blog is dedicated for you. Congratulations!

51 FACTS ABOUT GUYS.

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. “Hey, are you busy?” or “Are you doing something?” ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they’re gonna say so there aren’t awkward pauses, but once he’s on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.

10. Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…nevermind..” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys’ weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It’s good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don’t let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy’s confused, then we’re all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he’s probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

37. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn’t happen that often, so when it does, you know something’s up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you’re with your boyfriend, he’s probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he’s definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don’t be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl’s mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He’s just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.

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One More Semester!

Thank God for all the blessings. Finally, I got my grades. I can now finally say that the semester has finally ended and that my vacation starts right now. I was a bit anxious about my grades especially on Internet Marketing. Our final paper didn't turned out well and I was expecting a very low grade. But lucky me, I still got 1.75. :) Yes! One more semester and I'll be graduating from my dearest university. But for now, I have to focus on my On-The-Job Training and yes, Defense! Btw, I'm kinda expecting a lower grade for my OR course but looks like I did well. Well, partly. Lol. But International Marketing? Puh-lease! I almost perfected her quizzes and exams! Anyways, since I got a low semestral average, looks like I'll be having some difficulties in getting that Magna Cum Laude Award. I'll just hope that next semester would be better. Ciao! :)

I NEED PRAYERS T_T

I am having a dispute against someone. My roommate. Imagine, how awkward it’ll be when we meet next month? Yes, I’m gonna talk to her. But for now, I want a peace of mind. A peace for my soul. I don’t wanna hate people. After all, I’m trying to be nice to everyone. So far, the only gateway I have is to read bible verses hoping that all the hate would vanish.

“When you go out to war against your enemies, and see horses and chariots and an army larger than your own, you shall not be afraid of them, for the LORD your God is with you, who brought you up out of the land of Egypt.” Deuteronomy 20:1 (ESV)

“But if you are careful to obey him, following all my instructions, then I will be an enemy to your enemies, and I will oppose those who oppose you.” Exodus 23:22 (NLT)

And my real problem was that, I can’t help arguing with her even though I want to stop the fight. I don’t wanna just shut up and let her win. But I know God wants me to stop and just let her. But I can’t. I can’t help it. I want to show her that I will always win. And yes, I did. I showed her how filthy her reasons were. But i’m not happy enough. and that’s because I feel so much hatred inside of me. And I don’t like it. This is not me. So please, I’m asking you a favor to please pray for me so that I could focus and enjoy this vacation that I have. Please pray that I could have a forgiving a heart. Just a favor. Thank you so much.