Sunday, October 16, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
I am having a dispute against someone. My roommate. Imagine, how awkward it’ll be when we meet next month? Yes, I’m gonna talk to her. But for now, I want a peace of mind. A peace for my soul. I don’t wanna hate people. After all, I’m trying to be nice to everyone. So far, the only gateway I have is to read bible verses hoping that all the hate would vanish.
“When you go out to war against your enemies, and see horses and chariots and an army larger than your own, you shall not be afraid of them, for the LORD your God is with you, who brought you up out of the land of Egypt.” Deuteronomy 20:1 (ESV)
“But if you are careful to obey him, following all my instructions, then I will be an enemy to your enemies, and I will oppose those who oppose you.” Exodus 23:22 (NLT)
And my real problem was that, I can’t help arguing with her even though I want to stop the fight. I don’t wanna just shut up and let her win. But I know God wants me to stop and just let her. But I can’t. I can’t help it. I want to show her that I will always win. And yes, I did. I showed her how filthy her reasons were. But i’m not happy enough. and that’s because I feel so much hatred inside of me. And I don’t like it. This is not me. So please, I’m asking you a favor to please pray for me so that I could focus and enjoy this vacation that I have. Please pray that I could have a forgiving a heart. Just a favor. Thank you so much.